With all that has happened in 2009, it has been a bigger challenge for me than usual to have a positive attitude. We have had unemployment, we lost our Queen Creek home, we moved to a new city for a new job, we became a foster family, and we struggle every month to pay all of our bills even with both of us working (my job is the foster care). I only mention all these things because I know others struggle too. We are all in this together...as the saying goes. No one is untouched by adversity and no one is free of trials. These are some of ours.
I was struggling this past week with knowing my attitude needed an adjustment and searching for the inner will and desire to make the necessary shift in my thinking and my actions. I have not liked myself lately, and I say that purely out of a desire to change, not a "woe is me" attitude. My saving grace came from my church magazines. We are LDS and receive the Ensign and New Era. I typically go to the Ensign first, but in stead turned to the New Era and read an article entitled "Sticking My Neck Out". This sparked the desire I was looking for. I then poured through the Ensign and read "Hold on a Little Longer". I felt this article was directed solely to me. I needed to "Hold on a Little Longer". I have not lost my faith or hope, but I was not working towards having more faith and more hope either. I was just allowing myself to be stagnant.
I hope this year is a better year for you! I like your new blog look!
ReplyDeleteAmazing how that happens isnt it.... glad you have found renewed hope Celeste.... I have been cursed with the opposite...lol.... no matter what trials I always have a smile and am ready to go headlong into it nd get it done and over with... this doesnt mean I dont spend time in tears about it.. or wondering what to do.... but I think as you have found in the example here you shared... that at those times... when we turn to the Lord... HE will help us.. whether it be thru a magazine article, a person, an expierence,... whatever aha moment it is... it is just for us.....
ReplyDeleteBig hugs.... here is to 2010 being a wayy better year for all of us!!!
I think that 2010 will bring great experiences and blessings to your family. I also would never know you have trouble with being possitive. You are always smiling and laughing and setting a great example.
ReplyDeleteIt definitely isn't easy to be positive when so much seems negative in our life. When I was growing up and complaining, my mom made me write out a full-page of all my blessings. It was very hard at first. I showed it to her (with attitude) and went on with my "woe is me" attitude. She handed the paper back to me and told me to fill out the other side with more blessings. I will forever be grateful for that, as even just recently I have had to make a list of all my blessings and stop saying "Woe is me." It is amazing how much we DO have and our beautiful our life is, when Satan is trying so hard to tell us how our life stinks.
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