Memories and Blessings

Many of you may read this post and be quite amazed at what I'm about to write. I decided to share this story only because so many people suffer from broken marriages, falling "out of love" or even worse, serious sins that destroy peace and trust. Many people in our society feel broken or damaged. I share this story to say, "I know, I've been there..."

I've been struggling a bit personally and I discovered that many times when I am feeling down and don't know why, I can look back in my past and find an  "event" that brought great sadness happened at the same time of year, often even the same week of the year. A counselor I saw many years ago told me that the body stores "memories" much the same that our minds do, leaving us to sometimes have a "body memory" that our conscious does not always think about, especially if it was from a long time ago. (I have no scientific proof of this, you can look for it if you want.)

So, I realized that I was having a "body memory" issue lately rather than anything going on in my current life. The "memory" that has surfaced was when I left my first husband 18 years ago. I listened to this song as I drove away...



This song still brings the memories to surface. Has that ever happened to you? A song plays on the radio and you can remember listening to that song when something important happened...it doesn't matter if it was happy or sad...some things just impact us strongly. I have always reacted to this song ever since. I heard it on the radio a couple weeks ago and it has been running through my mind ever since.

That is not to say that I hate this song, it actually reminds me of how far I have come from that moment. I sometimes look back and think, "Who was that person who lived through such a horrible time?" It seems like another life to my conscious mind, but my subconscious must still be affected by it. I have such a different life now! I can only thank my Savior for bringing me through such a traumatic time, carrying me when I could not walk the path alone. I will never forget the great love that is given to me and the great blessings in my life. Thank you, Lord, for doing for me what I cannot do for myself.

Mike and I are about to celebrate our 17th Wedding Anniversary! I am truly thankful for him every day! I know that he is my Eternal Companion and that we are meant for each other. Is our marriage perfect? NO! But, we each make an effort to fulfill each other's needs, keep our relationship first, and treat each other like best friends.

Many people assumed that since I had one failed marriage that I would fail at everything else. If you know someone who is divorced, please don't treat them that way. Every marriage deserves the utmost effort by everyone to help it succeed, including encouragement to try again. Had I listened to all those naysayers, I would have missed out on the most wonderful person in my life. (I love you, Mike!)